Kind of jumbled

My mind's a bit of a mess today.

Waiting on news that is coming that is inevitable and will kind of disrupt normal life for a couple of days so I've kind of put normal life on hold for right now.

Feeling a little hurt or maybe confused by something that has bugged me off and on for awhile now and I really should just let go. I know it's not intentional and I know I read way too much into things.

Feeling melancholy as I do sometimes at this time of year when I think back on my wedding and the days leading up to it - kind of want to go back and do it all again sometimes.

Unsure about the long term future at work and trying to go day to day right now. Even the short term future is questionable at the moment.

Happy that Nate finally got a new car that I won't have to worry about him ending up stranded somewhere in the old one. Happy that it is a nice car in great shape and we can take it on our upcoming trip and get good gas mileage with it.

Anxious for that upcoming trip, I think we both need some time away, it's going to be a nice break.

So there you have it. Those are the thoughts bouncing around in my head right now. I try to keep things mostly upbeat and positive here, but life isn't always sunshine and roses and today I just felt like laying it all out there. I know some of it's a bit vague. I do want to stress that I am ok, I don't want anyone sending out the dogs to circle me or something. Sometimes you just need to share the not so great things along with the great things. Life is not always perfect.

Every day is a new day and I will keep looking forward and not back.


Gina said...

You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Awesome Nate got the car! That's exciting. Your trip will be here before you know it. You deserve it!

simplicity said...

I'm sorry to hear about your grandma and her possible death coming soon!

Hope your week gets better and your trip is here before you know it. Gina is right, you deserve it!