Tuesday Thoughts

You know it's funny. I wrote a post earlier this year about how I'm not perfect. And that it is ok. And that we can all learn from our own imperfections.

So I was remembering this as I was getting ready this morning - that I'm not perfect, I don't want to strive to be perfect and that I can accept myself for who I am. And I thought, it's funny because while I'm ok with not being "perfect" somehow I am a perfectionist.

Does that contradict just a bit?

I had this thought as I was working hard to get my makeup just right, my hair just so, needing to look a certain way and not being satisfied until it was well, in my own eyes I guess, perfect. And no, I'm not saying I should go to work looking like a slob, but you know, if I didn't cover that one blemish or if that one hair was out of place, would that be the worst thing ever?

Maybe that is a bad example. I am certainly not saying that being a perfectionist is a bad thing either. But there is a difference between "attention to detail" and "obsessive compulsiveness". I try to be more in the first category when it comes to my perfectionism - I work hard to make sure nothing is overlooked and I'm putting my best foot forward. But on occasion, I slip into the second category and that is where I think it contradicts with my saying it's ok not not be "perfect". If I truly believe that, then I need to not let myself become obsessive when it comes to certain things.

This post is another example - I have written and deleted, written and deleted several paragraphs worth! Again, I want to make sure what I'm putting out is clearly thought out and written well, but what am I so worried about? Yes anyone in the world can read my blog - but it's mostly friends and family who will love me no matter what.

So maybe I just need to remember my feelings that it's ok to not be perfect - because I think it's pretty funny to say that I'm a perfectionist who is ok with not being perfect! I'm nothing if not contrary!

Just random thoughts of mine on a sunny Tuesday I guess! What do you think, can you be a perfectionist without needing to be perfect?