My new normal

So - I've made it known to almost the rest of the world now - Nate and I are having a baby.  It's still so strange to say out loud.  We were definitely taken by surprise with this news, but we're very excited.

I won't lie - in the beginning it was an adjustment.  I am a rather high strung individual - shocking I know - and I was kind of blindsided by this even though (TMI) we kind of decided a while ago to kind of not really prevent pregnancy any longer.  We also weren't exactly tracking things either, so I guess we weren't hardcore trying - kind of playing a game of Russian Roulette with my reproductive system.  I read my body fairly well and kind of knew times to avoid if I was really concerned.  And there were definitely times that I was like "no, I can't get pregnant right now, if I do, I can't go to Winterfest" or "If I get pregnant right now, then this winery visit is not going to happen."  And now I think I sound like an alcoholic!  But anyway, it kind of worked for awhile.  And then our 15th dating anniversary happened and well - again with the TMI here - but I guess we gave each other the gift of a lifetime.

A week or two into April I realized that my monthly calling card just wasn't showing up and started to stress out a little.  My cycles are not exactly normal, so it wasn't uncommon, but something just felt...off.  I told Nate about it and he was like "just take the darn test, you'll feel better when you see there's nothing going on."  And so I did.  Surprise!

We took some time adjusting to our new normal.  And I realized something.  The phrase "the more you want things to stay the same, the more they change" is very true.  And not in a bad way.  Change is good.  Scary, but good.

I just feel so blessed - our family and friends have been so supportive and showering us with love and good wishes.

I used to joke that my biological clock was on daylight savings time - but it's finally caught up to me and now that it's upon me, I'm ready.  I'm happy and delighted and cannot wait to meet this tiny human when it shows up come December.  My world is already different, but I wouldn't have it any other way.

(I'll still post a May recap, but felt this warranted it's own post)