A clearer view

Life. It ebbs and flows. Sometimes it doesn't flow as much as we'd like, but we forge on.

Some days have been a struggle as of late. Nate's been beyond crazed at work - which is good job security - but it makes for challenges at home sometimes and making sacrifices at times. An example, due to some big things going on at his work (i.e. not able to take time off right now) and our weekends being kind of full both this weekend and next - we might miss the State Fair for the first time ever in 13 years of being together. I'm trying not to dwell on it and things may still work out. I try to put it all in perspective when I remember that only 3 years ago at this time of year we were just praying he would get a job. So it could be worse.

Other things, piddly things really, have been weighing on my mind off and on lately as well and I'll admit, it's been clouding my view of the world lately. I just haven't been 100% myself. It happens.

Then last night, Nate and I went out and did an activity I never dreamed in a million years I ever would do. I had a great deal of anxiety about it ahead of time too but I DID IT. I overcame a huge fear in my life that has plagued me from my childhood. And there is something that is just so hugely euphoric about that, all of the things that have been bugging me have kind of become nothing more than "thing-lets".

I have a clearer view again and it's a sunnier outlook. I'll take it.